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  1. For a long time I have had memories and visions of me being a soldier dressed in a gray uniform and dying in a fire bomb attack. The very last thing that I remember from that incarnation is being imgulfed by flames and a bright white light in my eye sockets. I also believe it is my most recent incarnation, the one just before my current one. And a few nights ago, I dreamt a dream: it was during the last days or rather nights of the 2nd World War. A fellow brother-in-arms (and who I also know in this incarnation) and I were running threw what was left of Hamburg trying to find shelter and when we spoke/shouted it was in German. Houses were bombed or in flames everywhere we looked. Suddenly I heard a plane right above us and I shouted to my friend to take cover. I hid behind what used to bedste a car and the last time I saw my friend in that incarnation was when he was trying to walk over some rubble to reach me. And then...everywhere was imgulfed in flames, my eyeballs melted and as that happend my hand touched the intense heat of the think that was my last moment in that incarnation...nobody could have survived that. I woke up straight afterwards. I have never had an interest in neither the military or it's uniforms. I have however been to Hamburg once in this lifetime and thinking back I found Hamburg quite familiar even though I had never been there before...or so I thought! However this is the first time that I have ever dreamt about a previous incarnation.
  2. Do you ever feel homesick and if so, how do you deal with it? Tonight is really bad, I am currently feeling so lost, alone and in desperate need to connect with other Elves...may they be Fae or Elenari. There is a reason why I have never really been able to connect with anyone in this world, it is not that I have disliked everyone that I have ever met online or offline, but in 99.5% of times that have just not been my people, meaning that deep down no matter how much I have loved and love them then I have always known that I was different from them and since the early 2000´s then I have known why. I am from a race that was never numerous in the first place and most of my people are living off this planet. Envied is not the correct word, because I am happy for Vampires that they have such a strong community or at least that is the impression that I have gotten throughout the years, but my interaction with fellow Draestari has been very limited. There is not a hell of a lot that I can do about that, but making a topic on a board where we can share advice on how to deal with homesickness and how each and every one of us cope with it, is the least that I can do. What I am doing tonight is to watch a video with faces that I would have felt familiar with on another world a long time ago.
  3. Thank you, Dem...I hope that you are safe too, girl :) Had the Corona twice myself, the buggar has two strains... the first time around I barely felt anything but the loss of smell and taste together with a dry cough and a bit of pressure in my rib case, the second time was a bit worse with muscle pains but lasted for fewer days. But it is sure weird going outside, the air is so much cleaner now and there is barely a soul in sight.
  4. My grandparents used to have a Soda Stream machine, but you would not catch them making healthy drinks on that one, they used to buy this really thick liquid to make pop...probably stuffed with more chemicals than the cola and what have you that you could buy in the supermarkets, but it saved my grandmother some money and spared her carrying home heavy shopping bags filled with soft drinks in glass bottles. But as for Soda Stream anno 2020 in the hands of a Vampire, I would definitely choose some kinds of berries or cherries :)
  5. This is really for my class in advanced Engish, but I am currently reading Hominids by Robert J. Sawyer and it is fascinating. Think CERN mixed with a What if? idea and neanderthals vs modern humans. It starts with an accident deep inside two mountains where scientists are experimenting with neutrinos and then suddenly something unexpected happens; a rift in the fabrics of the universe happens and two dimensions overlap each other for a brief moment in time. In one dimension the Neanderthal came out as the evolutionary victors, in the other dimension is what the Cro Magon who carried out the be the only human race left on Earth, suddenly the two meet and well, the differences and similarity between the two together with an insight into modern Neanderthal culture makes it a really good read and I am not even halfway through the book yet. However, I have not even had time to read volume 3 of The Complete Elfquest that I bought months ago and when I am to busy to even read my all-time favorite comic series then I know that I am studying/working too hard :/
  6. Been to Wales once myself and well, I do not really recall much of that one visit but I have been told that it is beautiful there. But truth be told, I would not want to live in London if paid to, I am sensing some strange about that city almost as if is being corrupted from the inside out and that worse is to come, two of my closest friends have moved away from London and have not regretted it one moment.
  7. It all comes down to what you mean by magic; I work a lot with herbal lore and for me, there is nothing more natural in the world than drinking some birch bark potion when I got a cold or The Flu, yet somebody once claimed that me working with herbalism was magical due to that it was beyond mainstream, obviously, I disagree with that being magical. I work a lot with tarot, now that I cannot really explain; I know it works but I do not exactly know how...not even after working with divination for well over two in that sense, I might be able to call it magic. But as for energy exchange, psi feeding, sacrificing blood (and yes, I do that with my own blood); it is a thing which connects me to other dimensions. Almost everybody has an astral body which is our bodies on a higher density; basically the higher vibrations hence the faster frequency that they atoms vibrate on the less solid something becomes. The atoms in our blood vibrate on the second highest next to our astral bodies. So the blood in a ritual is a channel, a link to the astral plane and other dimensions beyond that. So i would not even call that magical. But with all that said, there may not be lot of magic in the world from my perspective but there are a lot of intriguing, spiritual and marvelous things; when I look up at the North Star on the night sky I see what I believe to be The Black Sun in germanic mythology - a portal to the home of the gods and goddesses and who knows what lies behind that, most likely more dimensions than we can ever imagine, such as the realm of the dead and those yet to be reincarnated.
  8. I am a pagan and in my spiritual path, Otherkin play a big role in the mythology; there are Draugir which reminds a bit of Vampires, Ellefolket who are Elves, Merpeople, Shapeshifters etc. So I have never experienced any kind of conflict there, in fact, it has helped me a lot to judge the personalities of fellow Otherkin; far from all Demons are evil and I have encountered Angels who were real bastards and I would perhaps have thought differently had a been a christian or what have you,
  9. Now normally I do not very well along with Angel kin, but then again it is not that kind of angel that I am refering to: it is the kind of angel on wheels who came about after the second world war in America...the biker sort. And I think that the spirit of such an angel might just have saved my life! Even as a punk, I used to get along well - and know both skinheads, psychobillys, and bikers and well 95% of time most punks, metal heads, skins, mods, bikers etc. did get along or chose to just ignore eachother back in Copenhagen decades ago. And I used to know 5-6 bikers myself, I especially liked this guy (let's just call him K) It was not that we had anything more going than a casual friendship, because when I say that we all got along then I do not mean that we got it off with eachother at least not long term... we were not that crossover!!!! Never the less then I really liked K and well, had we belonged to the same sub culture then we would definitely have been together... he was just the coolest guy ever and well the other bikers used to tease me and say that K had a thing for me, I do not know if that was true though..they were a bunch of cheeky buggarsAnd well recently I have thought a lot about K, a lot more than I have since well, at least since I moved to Sweden. K has never known about me getting married and divorced (at least I assumed he hasn't), he knows nothing about me awakening, he never met Luna, and he does not know that I have left Denmark... it has truly been that long ago that I last saw him! So I could not fall asleep to night and I was lying and thiking about K again. I got up and found that my candle had almost burnt down, I switch on the lamp and grabbed a knife in the kitchen to scrape out the last bit if the candle in the candle holder and did just that. Now my knives and utensils lie in baskets that hang from the ceilling, space is scarce so I have to be creative. And well as I put the knife back in the basket, then I swear I hear the phone ring and turn towards it, and in that second the basket falls of the nails hooked to the ceilling and the knife lands on the floor where I was just a second before. That knife is pretty sharp and well it migth not have killed me, but it could sure have injured me. I just felt somebody was there...and well, someone who clearly likes me. As I said thenI have not spoken with K for many years now, I do not even know if he is still alive...there was a huge nordic biker war in the late 1990's between the Hells Angels and Bandidos and well, a few got murdered, he might have been one of them. So I wonder if there is a connection between the sudden many memories of him and this incident! Anyway I remembered of course to thank the spirit for looking after me, no matter who it was. As for the knife, I think it must have fallen under the fridge, because now I cannot find it.
  10. Yes, I have got some really good DMT here and if you belong to the nobility or even better if you are royal (in this incarnation that is) then you can have some absolutely free of charge, providing that you let me rule the entire world... from within the shadows that is since we still want the commoners to believe that they are free and that their votes really matter...he, he! Now just to make some sense of the above... In many ways I like David Icke! He speaks his mind and have lost a lot because of this. After all if you cannot face yourself in the mirror then you may wonder why you should even be alive. He shuns the english royal family and truth be told, I don't like them that much either. He is however a bit of track when it comes Luciferianism, Vampires, Demons, and...Elves!!!!! I stumbled over a vid on YouTube about him stating that the archons aka the reptillians were really... damn and here is comes... Elves!!! Or rather what he calls "Machine Elves" - apparently small self reproducing Elves whom with their magical singing can create anything and on top of that...possess people making them willing slaves by the aid of DMT!!!! Now DMT is a very real substance: we all have a bit of this phycedellic drug in us safely tucked away in our pineal gland (the third eye) and all mammals has this which is the reason why people can use DMT without killing their next door neighbour etc. to get hold of the drug. David Icke and Alex Jones claim that people on DMT can easily "punch holes in The Veil" and get possesed by these nasty Elves and that Elves in human bodies are thus the real archons on this planet...apparently the reptillians have decide to pack up and leave or something like that...leaving it once again up to The Elves to be the seductive baddies as we were thought of in more darker times when people used think that the sun rotated around Gaia, that Syphilis sores were something to be proud of, and that royals were living gods!!!! Has David lost it? Well, let me put it this way...someone is definitely manipulating him. His mind is incredibly open and The Vorjen are very good at manipulating the open minded. You have really got be on your guard when being very open spiritually and astrally or even when just watching T. V, getting drunk or getting stoned...which is why I never touch alcohol or drugs. Now this is not the first time that David has made a mess of terms, names, and races. He has lashed out at Vampires without really knowing what the hell he was on about and now he had switched to Elves. Because trust me, if I was in any position to control the elite and this planet well then things would be very different!!!! I have never tried DMT myself and it would be far to dangerous to do it now, but no, I do not believe that The Veil can be punched through or it would have been if not gone then very weak by now. And those Elves who do "posess" people on this plane of exsistance are either Elves by blood or in my case, an Elven soul which has been in a human body since before I was born into this incarnation: I did not sing my way to a three months old fetus while leaving my 800 children which I had produced all by myself some where back in fairy land :-D So dearest David, if you are reading this... then you might want to read about The Vorjen, instead of going on about "baddies" like Vampires and Elves, because you are getting a tad of track, mate :-D Trust me, if I had so much power as you claim then The Windsors would be living in a small council flat somewhere in Manchester by now! You might be right about Elves in true form being sillica based instead of carbon based like us on this plane: the Fae realm is said to be of a higher density, but that is old news in this neck of the woods!
  11. And once they started on that then trust me...they will never stop
  12. I first wanted to post this on a the Elven board, but I have been told that this applies to some Vampires here goes: There are a few issues regarding time in my life: I have a really rotten conception of linear time, I do not own a mobile phone hence a clock in my bag, all the clocks on buildings where I live never seem to work, and I just seem to fry the batteries in conventional watches (see above paragraph). I have tried to wear watches on my right wrist because if I wear them on my left wrist over my Elven flow the battery will only last a few days, on my right wrist 1-2 weeks: when I practise my darts I use magnetic arrows and one day I decide to make an experiment. I have long suspected that my Elven flow equals stronger magnetism in my aura which in itself is an electromagnetic force field. And rightfully so, when I held an arrow over my right wrist I could hardly sense anything however over my left wrist I could definitely feel a magnetic pull. Now I am not technical minded by I know that too much ampere through a battery can really mess up an electrical circuit hence in this case blocking the power to the quartz crystal which makes the watch work. The problem is that I am mostly right handed which makes it a nuissance to even fasten the watch strap yet alone all the knocks and bumps the watch get's from everyday life. I would like a watch though for practical reason and it will not hurt if I can wear it as an accessory, too. I have really stumbled over wooden watches, I like the concept, and since there is no steel casing/conductor of magnetism, they should be sturdy enough for even me to wear one. But has anyone here, who normally cannot wear watches, any experience with wooden watches? Can we wear them or does the battery fry way to early like in conventional steel cased quartz runned watches?
  13. Oh, fancy our Mog getting married It feels just like yesterday that you were a little shyte of a teenager Congratulations, Mog (and try not to set her so much on fire on your wedding night that you completely burn her out) So who is the lucky lady?
  14. There is of course no guarentee that what you see on the astral plane is 100% true, but I have been confirmed in what I have seen in more than just one incident.
  15. Asking for a bit of help is fine. There is a big difference between having a sparring partner and just learning back and doing nothing. I have tried to look for him online, but with no luck... I will give the astral plane a go in a few days time to see if I can get in touch with him there.
  16. I am sure that things will work out with the bills, Rhannan :-) But yeah, being in an economical pickle is never fun.
  17. I think a sundail watch would be well... a bit of a pain in the backside to wear... unless you have super strong wrists and lots of sunshine, I have neither :-D I have however heard that digital watches are not so sensitive to magnatism, but I have never seen one that I have liked...they are too masculine and bulcky for my taste. As for other electronic devices running on batter power: I am sure that it said some where in the manual which came with my tablet how long the battery lasted. Problem is I threw the manual away a long time ago without ever having reading it in the first place :-D So I must confess that I have never really notice if I drain other electronic devices as I do with watches. I have had a few pocket watches, but I forgot to put them away in some safe spot, when I had Luna. She used to like playing with them and pushing them down from tables... then the glass broke and well, death came swiftly by the touch of tiny, and yet fatal velvet soft paws :-D
  18. *Grabs the largest cushion in sight, throws it on the floor by the fire place, sits down on it with a mug of hot back current juice* Nothing much is happening here. Just gone through almost two weeks of Earth Empath symptomer which is a lot longer than usual, some days I could not even exercise :S But all is well now, going to do some more reading and writing. Dreamt of little Luna last night <3 I know how you feel, Yaakov...I have been appointed as a tutor/mentor too and no, I don't mind sharing what I know, but some people just know how to drive you around the bend! I used to know this guy online who decided to make me his mentor and fair enough, I did not mind helping him out, until he suddenly felt all entitled and demanded me to be able to chat when ever he felt like it including when I was working from home. In the end I just had to delete and block him! I am out a job too at the moment. Good thing is that I have gotten a job consultant who is like I into heavy metal, punk, and the occult... I doubt that he will actually find me a job, but we have some good and fun chats. As for making money though: I am considering selling online tarot lessons and unlike my e-book, Green Dragon, then the books that I am working on now I will sell as e-books on Google books, Etsy, or Lulu. And I can only agree: I miss this place too. But face it, the only ones who can keep this place alive and buzfing is us :-)
  19. I am really enjoying this winter. There is snow everywhere and it looks so pretty...and best off, it is not so cold that I cannot halt for a moment and enjoy the winter wonderland landscape :-) I am feeling the cold less this winter, it might be down to my new army boots, but it definitely has something to do with me taking a cold shower everyday since May last year too: I could just go on and on about why I will never take a hot, yet alone warm shower again and all the advantages of taking icey cold showers, but one thing I definitely do feel is that I feel the cold less now than ever before.
  20. *peaks down in the picknick basket to see if there is anything left still fresh enough to be eaten and finds a tin of sliced peaches* Well, at least this sort of necromancy won't leave you dying of starvation :-D
  21. Not to be rude, but how can you be an ex- phychic Vampire? Either you are one or you are not. I might be mistanken, but don't you mean that you have just learnt to control your psi feeding?
  22. Empath!!!! Usually people think of empaths as gifted and sensitive persons who can sense other people's emotions, as if they were their I do not fit into that catagory by far! In fact sometimes I have wondered if I might be a bit of a sociopath for not paying attention to people's emotions or perhaps I have just spent to much time surrounded by drama queens and attention seekers. But ever since my awakening began, I have been more reliable than most weather forecasts when it comes to predicting both natural disasters, major accidents and unrests amongst people. Since the early 2000's if I suddenly experienced mood swings including being very aggressiv one minute and depressed the next, pains in my hands, my phantom ears raising hell and feelling light headed...something always happened two-three days after!!! The first time I really in earnest experienced this, was just days before the extremely powerfull earthquake and following tsunami in December of 2004 and in the days leading up to this, I thought I was going mad!!! And then just as sudden as the symptomes had appeared, they dissappeared again. Now to me, sensing energy is by now an everyday thing, a natural part of life. I was not even aware of the fact that I am a Draestari elf, when I for the first time felt the now familiar magnetic pull through my entire body or in other words a Psi Vampire having a cosey little snack on me, needless to say the rude buggar was startled when he found out that I could sense him Also since my awakening I have been able to sense and sometimes even see people's true form. But whether the above occassions have something to do with me being an Elf or not...that I do not know!!!! But I know for sure that being an Earth Empath is not something exclusively Elvish and that is one of the reasons why I am writing this post!!!! Earth or Gaia Empaths is something which is not very much written about, because can a planet "have feelings"? Are the rocks and the air "alive"? This planet is like you and I, the blanket lying on your bed and the air you breathe made of atoms...atoms vibrate and the lower the vibration, the more dence things are. The vibrations are in many itself and I believe it is these vibrations or rather a disturbance in the vibrations from this planet that Gaia Empaths can sense. But try writing this in less tolerant forums while hoping to come across as being completely sane!!! But what ever you have thought up until now then you are not neither physically or mentally ill, if you can sense forth comming earth quakes or conflicts and you are certainly not alone in this!!!!! Just an example: animals are known to act alarmed just before an earth quake happenes and just before a tsunami...they move to higher grounds. You are just as much a part of nature as a bird or a why should it be different for Otherkin or humans? I feel blessed for being a Gaia Empath, but it can also be a curse! Despite the strength of the symptomes, then you do not know where a disaster will happen or what actions will be carried out in a cannot warn anyone, even if people were willing to listen (which they are not). The past week has been a bit rough, so the chemical attack in Syria or the terrorist attack did not come as a surprise to be honest. A friend of mine...a Vampire and fellow Gaia Empath used to struggle a lot with the death tolls of all the things she was sensing, but the one way to cope with being a Gaia Empath is to know that you can sense, but at least for now...not prevent. The blessing is however to be able to feel the life force of Gaia within is a very intimate privilege that makes the symptomes easier to live with: on tough days, go easy on yourself! Feelfree to share your thoughts and experiences...
  23. As you might know I lost my little life's companion a few weeks ago and this took place two days after her crossing the rainbow bridge... I had runned out of food and was forced to go down to the supermarket and restock. And on my way home I saw something really strange... I have lived for almost 11 years in my current home, I know every creek and crack in the building, and have seen quite a few neighbours come and go: one of them a rockabilly guy in his 20's. We used to greet and talk a bit everytime we met in the yard or in the washing cellar and he seemed like a nice chap. He moved away a few years ago. Never the less, on my way home I saw him, or someone who looked alot like him, come around a corner and walked a few meters infront of me. As we were walking down the my street I was a bit lost in my own world, thinking about what to do with Luna's body and trying to handle my greif...and then I see him stopping at the spot where the fence to the yard stops and the outer walls of the building where I live in begins: he turns to face the wall, takes two steps, and litterally dissapears into the wall!!!! I do believe in ghosts, but with that said, neither do I scream "Ghost!!!" everytime I see a shadow! So my brain begain overloading!!! He looked as solid as a living person belonging to this dimension and dressed in a builder's work clothes. When I first saw him I assumed that he was on the way home from work as the time was around 6.30 pm. And had he stopped and done the same just a few meters further ahead then I could have convinced myself that someone again had left the main front door wide open...but this is not what happened!!!! I then thought based on his appearance that he had been hired to work on or remove the fence and that he had forgotten some tools, gone back to fetch them and walked through a hole in the fence or something like that. But as I reached the fence then I could see that it was the same old fence and all intact!!! There is a small space between the fence and outer wall but it is only a few centimeters wide and thus there is no way that a fully grown man of flesh and blood could squeeze himself through that gap!!!!! Furthermore, there where he dissapeared into the wall leads into my kitchen where Luna's body was lying in the freezer. So who was he? A ghost, a person in another dimension which breifly overlapped with mine or someone to guide Luna into the afterlife (as she was dying I told her not to be afraid and that she was going to Freya in Folkevagn. I also have a friend who is a germanic shaman and who did his to make her passing a gentle one)? Thoughts, please...
  24. Perhaps this spirit once worked on a construction site and well if I was him then I would wear my construction clothes too. I admire blue collared men: without them we would not be living in comfy warm houses with stoves and flushing toilets.
  25. I understand what you are saying, but when you think about Atlantis, Rama's bridge in India, The Yonaguni monument in Japan, and Mohenjo Daro in India together with The Vedas then this indicates that there were antediluvian civilization which were perhaps not as technological advanced as this current one, but at least a lot more developed than coventional science wants us to believe. Another good reason to want to learn more about these almost forgotten civilizations is to better prepare for when our civilization comes to an end...instead of letting history repeat itself. I bought a copy of The Vedas in December, but due to different reason then I have not got a chance to read it yet, but now I have got a sudden urge to read written knowledge which is at least 2000 years old.