Yaakovana Tovah

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  1. Pretty much, though it felt more forced because my natural "curve" as it were got thrown off. If you can imagine energy having a spin, its like I'm used to it spinning one way and then it started going the other way, leading to collision. If that makes sense. I work to balance my three main images. I have the masculine image and the female image, the third coming into alignment when they do. Before the retrograde, my masculine energy was a lot denser and more forceful with the feminine more reduced and lighter. When the retrograde started up, their personalities shifted. All of a sudden now the feminine side is stronger, more aggressive and cunning, where as now the male has become like air, more flowing, ethereal and complementary to her. I don't believe in fixed gender roles so it wasn't hard to get their middle ground again, but it was definately a learning curve.
  2. Everything being thrown into retrograde has scattered my energy to the winds. Even at work, trying to be myself and keep everything intact has been a challenge, but one I've welcomed. It's given time for self-reflection and reworking how my energy operates. I've also learned some important limits... Because my Celestial body draws from the universe and the unification of elemental symbolism to my body, and subsequently my soul, I've had to become very precise on which parts of my body represent what, especially the chakras. It was a concept I was already familiar with, but everything going whack has forced me to relearn my body and how it will affect me on the Astral Plane. These things made me realize there are a few things I do not have an effect on, or rather, things not part of my being. Because I'm a manifestation of the universe, trying to call upon beings or energy to help me utilize the specific chaos that is the Void is impossible. My being can't handle it as it feels like it'll tear me from the inside out. Being rooted in physical states, also means I can't use Astral Space for remote, temporal viewing. Matter only moves forward, not backward, at least not without some mechanic that bends quantum laws. As a result, my being on the Astral plane feels transfixed to the present, an important distinction for me. How this works with my precognitive states however is something I have to examine in length and ultimately don't have an answer for...my mind might be making random predictions that make it feel like temporal viewing, but in actuality may be trying to think of scenarios randomly to determine certain outcomes. I don't really know what to think of it. On a smaller note, with the retrogrades, I've felt disconnected from my first Tarot deck and had to find another. The next one is specifically noted as a Cosmic Tarot and seems more receptive now. Whether this is temporary or not remains to be seen. Hope that was informative.
  3. I tend to tell only those I get good enough vibes from. As for dating Otherkin, I can't relate because so few people understand me this way, but just last night a partner and I had a night of soul searching...with a happy ending. She has the drive of a rabbit, but she's come to an interesting revelation that she was once Mer-kin and we're comfortable enough we might put a ring on it. She hasnt said no to my proposal either <3 {Swwwoooon}
  4. I've been leary of fictionkin from personal experience, but it's beyond me to judge if they should be here or not. As long as we all get along and are constructive about it, then I'm for it.
  5. Very cool. To amend what I've previously said, I've learned I have many names because my consciousness is divided into several seperate other beings. Yaakovana is my Celestial side who is actually a walk-in, not my original soul. Xana or Xanarathos, is my original soul. The long of the short is he's is believed to be a child of Loki and Bastet. He once was a container for all my negative energy until he was forced into the negative realms for his existence. Yaakovana was sent to recover him from a wish granted Yutril. Yutril is a personification of my bodies intelligence. That includes genetic memory and my subconscious. He's, effectively, not a soul, but a construct that is conscious of his own existence. They were once called Nameless, and he was until he was actually named, ironically, by himself. He is a product of psychological trauma. Tiger lives beside Yutril, but her soul is simply instinct and animal intents that fosters a deep connection to the Fae world. She is something in my genetics. Either a family member once became a felinthrope, was a felinthrope or some process exposed me to becoming one. It could also be a psychological remnant from when I was homeless and latched onto the other personalities for cohesion. Then you have Rathmos, who is a state of mind when all of us and our parts work towards the same accord with no objections. Rathmos is almost fully androgynous and usually only appears in meditation or our spellwork. Hope that was interesting and made sense.
  6. Then you know, who have enough knowledge to know that absolutely everything that grows has some form of regenerating genetic structure, aka DNA. Rocks even have them, its just more enviromentally created rather than grown. We can prove we share the same DNA with bananas and all sorts of things. DNA works, to put simply, like different blocks of parts that all can be interchanged, whether by evolution or lab tests, that are then scanned by a fax machine so I.T. can get to work on making it. Just like spare parts, junk DNA may not be used, but is broken down by the body to make them into different segments. I just recently came to the conclusion that my "Tigerness" and she who lives beside me, is part of the soul as a development of both survival and habitutation (licking my wound, biting my nails, avoiding dog-like people, etc), not from one of my previous lives or connected to my original soul. As a side by side comparison, my father strikes as the more cat-like. But it could be my mother too. Which if I'm correct, some time in my ancestery, one of us may have interbred with humans or was passed a felinthropic disease. What can do that? Rabbies. I can solve how animal humans are a complete and total possibility.
  7. As long as the source is trustworthy and editing is minimalistic at best, just to fix grammar errors and such, than I suppose that could also work. As a side note, Reddit seems to be an interesting place. Not exactly what I'm thinking of, but they have an Otherkin board on there I'm looking through.
  8. Agreed. So, we'd need a blog platform that allows for multiple people to post, but not just anyone. It'd have to be privileged people who can make the posts. I'll do some digging and see which blogs could support that...based on it's reputation and my own experiences, we should probably avoid Tumblr unless its our best option.
  9. It's not a bad idea by any measure. Question is where you want to put this blog.
  10. Blogging, Youtube, etc. is going to run into all the same problems that any platform does. Much like social activism, voices need to be heard on things. Freedom of Speech, unfortunately, doesn't mean that we have freedom from what discrimination comes our way. Tribes dealt with it, different races deal with it all the time and the LGBTQ arguably get more still right now than we do. We have to live with it and be graceful under fire. Issues like this one is what I hope to address at some point. People like us don't have many resources and in the near future I hope to publish a book or two on the subject, using logic and science as best as I can to back us up, which is perfectly possible when using the right terminology. Granted it relies in the realms mostly of psychology and philosophy, but I'm confident I can tackle it. As for body modifications, with technology on the rise, there's many things that can potentially be available to us in the near future. Properly funded, there's many things I would like to do for myself to make myself more comfortable. People see the outside, but a few people are comfortable knowing who and what I truly am...might be sad to say that those same people do specific activities with me that, how we say, help open their minds about it, but regardless they affiliate me afterward and respect my existence. I am sure many can be like them someday.
  11. I wouldn't mind playing with others, s'long as things are equal in the game. I've played games with people before, like in MMOs, but I try to find ones that divide things up, because otherwise I tend to hog things ^-^; not trying to be a pain about that, I'm just too used to solo play and growth. I've been kicked from groups that typically have a "Need or Greed" system. As for the topic, I've heard of Guns of Icarus, but never looked too deep into it, but I am looking for something new to play. I'll give my gamertag to anyone who PMs :)
  12. Been trying to expand my musical knowledge of late actually. I never really appreciated the classics, but as I'm getting older, it seems like my taste in music is becoming a lot less rigid. Among them, I've been enjoying Fleetwood Mac. <iframe width="560" height="315" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/Tm0nopK1BQM" frameborder="0" allow="autoplay; encrypted-media" allowfullscreen></iframe>
  13. Today: Currently at work. Afterwards, either play MTG, Battleborn or some other, probably, single player game. 10 Years Ago: On a Friday night? I think I was still playing D&D with my cousins at that time. That or my bff. If not, I was probably on Gaia Online or Xat, being a lurker on 4chan or watching anime. 20 Years Ago: Might've had a sleep over with a cousin at our grandmother's house. We usually played Yu-Gi-Oh or whatever video games were available at the time. 30 Years Ago: Blurry at best. Long before conception. Have no idea if I was somebody else, doing something important or if I was floating around in the Aether.
  14. Nope. Nu-huh.